I love my girlfriend :)

Where do i start..

i HAD the most amazingiest girlfriend any guy would ever ask for- coming from my friends, co-workers, and even my parents.

she cooked for me, did my hair sometimes, got me toothbrushes and tooth pastes, clothes that i wanted, took me out to eat, paid for my foods, brings me lunches and co-workers lunches, started a relationship with all my family members, took my niece out, friends with my hairstylist, introduced me to her family members, introduced me to all these beautiful sights, beautiful songs, beautiful thoughts, always tells me that im the only guy out there that has her, that im for sure that im the only guy shes looking at and nobody else. always making me feel special, and most definitely happy. yes we do have those bad fights and what not, but after the fights, theres always the love that connects us together, that love that keeps us together, we’d always fight for each other, always trying to keep each other happy, happy and together no matter what. of course we went through the really rough times, but we still made it through she made me feel like the luckyiest man to have a lady like her. basically shes part of my life, half my life. without her i really dont have anything.

from all the products shes gave me, all the loves she gave me, its really something

stupid as i am, the guy that messes up-

there were times that i treated her like shit, i made us stop talking on the phone at night, made us stop texting every minute of our time, id talked to other girls, text message girls behind her back, even my ex, made her feel like shes not the only girl out there for me, i hid things from her, lied to her, my games were so bad, i played with her feelings, made her cry multiple times, not fixing my problems, treating her like everything was okay when i did something behind her back, always came wrong when she was right, took her trust and treated with no respect at all, we’d always fight about the same reason, the reason where i messed up, and didnt change at all. i made our relationship to come out with no trust, no feelings, and no love.

you are an amazing women, you cherish everything that we had, you made everything better from my life to others, what im trying to say is, yes you do deserve a lot better, a better man out there, a guy that you do deserve.

but you also made me realize that i really need to step up, be ready for this world thats out there, be ready to settle or else i will lose everything. you are my everything and i lost you.

im sorry that i hurt you, im sorry i went behind your back, im sorry that i treated you like shit, im sorry for wasting a year of your life to be with a horrible person i am.

now i miss what we had, miss the loving the kissing, the hugs, you surprising me with lunch, miss you spending the night, miss seeing you talk to your mom, miss seeing you smile when you see me, miss all that we had, and i feel very miserable. i lost you, i lost everything.

if you do give me one more chance, im ready to settle, im ready to put away high school things, im ready to step up, and show you that you are the only women in my life, the only lover, best friend, partner in life. you are the one that i want to spend the rest of my life with. if you give me one more chance, i promise that i am not going to make you regret it, mos definitely the tattoo you got for the both of us. i love you and i want to spend the rest of my life with you.

She does so much,

  sees me after work just to bring me my favorite drink while im at work [dr.pepper], asks me what should we have for dinner, giving me the option, paying for foods when we go out, having crepes together, always wanting to stock on our favorite drinks, waiting for the ice cream truck so she could get me my favorite lucus ice cream, letting me have the last bite/drink, having fun with Callie, helping mom out, washing dishes when noone else in the house does except my mom, telling me to clean up my room, knowing parents would be mad if messy, telling me to wash clothes so i WILL have clean clothes, telling me to come brush my teeth with you at night and to wash my face, being part of my family, making them proud, make me know that i’m only yours, letting everyone know that we are together, always making me happy with everything that she does, making me feel like i have the best girlfriend, just making me love my life knowing she is always gonna be right with me through everything, most definilty love me. 

i have done the worst ever, doing things behind her back, talking to other girls, seeing a ex, letting her find out about it, being stupid in front of her, making her worry everytime im not in her sight, making her think all the bad things that can possibly be happening, making her cry every night, not having her back, always selfish, not saying thanks to the things she does for me, coming into my work feeling embarrased because she has this stupid guy. yes i was that guy, i was that selfish stupid little boy.

 but i gave up all that, all that stupid shit, all that mess to prove to her that i can’t lose a girl like her, she’s the best anyone can ever ask for, how could i do such a thing,

she has opened my eyes once i knew that i was really hurting her once she broke it off with me, making me think- how could all this happen, what did i do wrong when it was all in front of me,

it made me change, i wanted to prove to her that i wanted to be with her, without her i was nothing, literally nothing, noticing all that i did, i hated myself, for even doing that, what if she did that to me, no way she would never do such a thing, because she is that perfect girl, she have made me grown from a kid to a man once she left me, im growing and being more mature, thanks to her, what hurts me the most is that another man can be treating her better than i can, and that hurts, just the though of it,

i thank her so much for putting up with me, all that i have done, all the stupid mistakes, through every little stupid selfish shit that i have done, to hurt her- she still stand by my side, knowing in her mind that i can change, having that positive though, comes to a positive outcome.

she deserve better, she deserve the best man that she can ever have, and that’s me, she has built me to being that better man, she brought the right man for her, thanks to her, he’s right here, right here next to her.

Amanda P.

Baby I’m really sorry for putting all that bad into our relationship, and i hope you forgive me, but just know that you have made me relize that life is coming, we’re both adults and its really time to get serious, and i’m serious with you, i really want you in my life, and  i thank you again for not giving up on me,

I love you so much, and please know that thanks to you, I’m your better man

October 16, 2010- I forever love youu

Lucy Liu hasn’t been washed since what? last month I believe, damn Texas weather is killing my carro, but she gets washed up right now, with my Rick Ross music. Pictcha the afta okay?